New Year, New Habits with the Best Chronological Bible Reading Plan + Resource Bundle
Welcome to 2024! A year for growth, introspection, and building some strong spiritual habits. What better way to kickstart your year than by diving into the wisdom of the Bible? Imagine having all the tools at your fingertips to not just start a new Bible reading plan but to cultivate lasting, healthy spiritual habits. Intrigued? Let me introduce you to the ULTIMATE Bible Study Bundle. It’s a comprehensive group of my most-requested resources to propel you forward in faith.
The Ultimate Bible Reading Toolkit
In this fast-paced digital age, we understand the need for simplicity and convenience. That’s why I curated the ultimate toolkit for your spiritual growth—all in one, easy download. Unpack SEVEN invaluable resources designed to jumpstart your spiritual journey and foster a deeper connection with God. Let’s take a closer look at what’s inside.
The Bible calls us to spiritual maturity, but I’ll be the first to admit that I’ve had trouble in the past sticking to a reading plan, or cultivating healthy habits of being in the Word on a daily basis. Things really changed for me when my mental health was at its worst. I knew I couldn’t just “pray away” the depression that was actively eating me alive. But I also knew I desperately wanted the joy, peace, and contentment God promises those who follow Him. I began to study Scripture in a new way, and the web of lies that had ensnared my mind, mental health, and wellbeing began to loosen. Eventually, it fell away completely.
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1. See the BIG Picture with the Best Chronological Bible Reading Plan
Ever felt lost in the vastness of the Bible? Here is my favorite Chronological Bible Reading Plan—a roadmap through time. Experience the narrative, Psalms, and prophets in a sequential flow, making comprehension a simpler. This has become my favorite way to read the Bible. It’s perfect for beginners or folks looking for an easy plan to follow. It’s not a year-long plan, so simply read as much as you like each day, until you’ve worked through the whole book.
2. 90 Days to Transformation: The Bible Reading Challenge
Challenges breed growth, and I’ve got just a good one for you! Dive into an intense 90-Day Chronological Bible Reading Challenge. This 90 day Bible reading challenge has been updated with a bookmark checklist format for easy reference, as well as the classic one-sheet. This is more than just a reading plan; it’s a transformative journey. I’ll be launching a summer challenge in June–so be sure to subscribe to emails or join me on Instagram and Facebook for details.
3. Reshape Your Sabbath and Reclaim Your Rest
Jesus calls those who are weary and burdened (See Matthew 11:28-30). Developing healthy spiritual habits does not mean adding weight to our already full plates. Ours is a God of blessing, grace, and rest. Make this the year you embrace Sabbath rest–a practice that cultivates trust in God, while giving you the gift of time and peace. The “Reshaping Your Sabbath” worksheet, empowers you to carve out meaningful moments of rest. Unplug, rejuvenate, and enjoy the rhythm God designed for us. Read more about creating a Sabbath routine here.
4. Unravel the Old Testament: Your Guide to Understanding
The Old Testament can be a challenging terrain. Some might even use the word “boring.” Fear not! The Ultimate Bundle equips you with a study guide focused on appreciating Old Testament Law. You’ll gain understanding, but also gain an appreciation for these foundational portions of Scripture. This simple resource enhances the chronological Bible reading plan.
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Creating a habit of reading and understanding Scripture shouldn’t be complicated. Further increase healthy spiritual habits by incorporating the SIMPLEST, most sustainable journaling technique ever. This printable journal page—Quiet Time One Liners is the easiest way to capture your thoughts, reflections, and prayers in a format that seamlessly integrates into your daily routine.
6. Inductive Bible Study Made Easy: Infographic Guide
Inductive Bible Study is a powerful method to dive deep into Scripture. While the inductive method can get very complicated, it doesn’t need to be. I’ve simplified this effective study technique with an easy-to-understand infographic. Whether you’re a beginner or a seasoned reader, this guide will revolutionize the way you approach Bible study.
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My prayers seemed to be met with silence. My perspective on unanswered prayer was about to change.
I had been praying for things to change for months. Over and over I asked God to remove the pain in my body and mind.
Still, the pain remained.
I sat on my patio in the warmth of the North Dakota summer sun and contemplated my reality. My body had been forever altered through a freak spinal injury during a low-impact fitness class. I thought surgery would fix the pain, the doctor said I was a perfect candidate.
Yet the pain remained. Somedays it was worse than before surgery.
Prescription painkillers took the edge off. I took them around the clock. Never did I imagine I’d be dependent on pills to function, but here I was.
Where Was God in The Unanswered Prayer?
My whole world seemed upside down. My body had failed, my thoughts were jumbled, my prayers felt stunted. Where was God?
If you’ve experienced blinding pain—whether emotional or physical—you will understand. Ongoing pain can send us drifting, especially when we try to anchor ourselves with something prone to floating away.
Unknowingly, that’s what I had done. I staked my self-worth and self-esteem on my physical performance and ability to work. When that was taken, the structure of my identity and faith began to crumble.
As I sat in the sun, I thought about the seemingly thousands of times I’d prayed for relief that never came. Then I asked myself a convicting question, “Do you worship God because you know He is the one and only God, because He alone has rescued you from the penalty of sin…or do you worship Him because you want Him to give you what you want?” Did my faith rely solely on the outcome of an unanswered prayer?
Prayer Is More Than Submitting Wishes To God
My prayer life had been distilled into one prayer—a wish—whispered repeatedly from my heart: Please make this pain go away. Heal my body. Make things how they used to be.
As Christians, we pray to a living God. This means our prayers do not need to be limited to wishes as though we’re tossing pennies into a fountain. Our prayers can be worshipful conversation. Prayer affords us the opportunity to sit at the throne of the Almighty God, to bask in His presence, seek His divine discernment, and allow the sheer majesty of His closeness to properly align our hearts. Prayer is so much more than closing our eyes to present a wish list (or worse, a to-do list) to God. It’s a conversation, it’s a gift.
In my distress and grief, I’d cast aside those truths about prayer. Day after day I submitted my singular request with no room for discussion, teaching, or transformation. That day in the sun, I faced a choice. Could I muster the courage to trust that God is good, holy, and true despite my physical and mental pain? Or did I only accept His sovereignty when I got what I wanted or didn’t need to depend on Him to move forward?
Maybe you are at a juncture requiring similar soul searching. What will your choice be?
Pain Doesn’t Equal Unanswered Prayer
I chose the former and set my pain up like an altar of remembrance. It was testimony that I chose Jesus, despite the pain of the world and imperfection of human existence. I prayed a new prayer in which I proclaimed to believe that God is who He says He is in Scripture—whether my pain vanished or never relented. As, as creatures of free will have the ability to intentionally trust that God is good and that His goodness can coexist with worldly suffering. Pain does not nullify His righteousness, omniscience or love for us.
God is an ally who sustains and redeems us as we traverse a world where we “will have trouble,” (John 16:33). He thwarts attacks from the enemy and turns them into assets in our personal ministry and redemption story.
When we find strength to overcome the lie that we’ve done faith wrong when we experience pain in this life, amazing things can happen. When our prayers seem to be unanswered, maybe it’s time to reassess the heart of our prayer. Are we too blinded by our ideals to see a gift God wants to give us? Is God trying to perform a bigger miracle that what we are envisioning?
Complete erasure of my pain would have been a miracle, but God did something bigger. He placed peace, joy, even happiness in my heart despite the pain. He paved a way for me to thrive and live abundantly—even in the midst of the pain. Sometimes the biggest miracle is the ability to stand firmly in peace while facing adversity that seems insurmountable (Ephesians 6:10-18).
Shifting My Perspective on Prayer Prepared Me For Trials To Come
I didn’t know it, but I was about to lose my mind. Even after this heart-changing moment, I would spiral into a life-threatening depression. Nearly everything I thought about God, marriage, myself and life would be put to the test, shaken and rebuilt in Truth.
There was great pain, but greater healing. I see now God was never far from me. He was with me as toxic thought patterns were extracted from my mind, poisonous lies were syphoned from my heart and destructive misconceptions were pruned from my faith. Consciously choosing to shift my perspective allowed God to step in and heal brokenness that had caused a lifetime of cyclical anxiety and depression. Starting with this shift in prayer-life, He began reaching in to bring about mental healing that would last. He began giving me something I didn’t even know to ask for.
When placed in God’s miraculous hands, He will take our suffering and use it as a medium to create redemption, ministry and joy. This journey starts when we summon the courage to humble ourselves enough to step aside and trust Him to be the good God He claims to be.
How Can I Help You Hold Onto Hope? I’m Here To Serve You.
Here are a few ways, but I’m always open to new ideas.
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If you are in a position of leadership or ministry, I offer consultation calls designed to answer questions and strategize ways to serve individuals grappling with their mental health.
The following is a brief overview of my mental health story. I put these words down in hopes that you’ll be encouraged to move forward and keep living. There is hope and life beyond depression and anxiety. You CAN overcome this.
In 2014 I was in the midst of a mental health crisis. An unexpected injury left me in chronic pain and I slid down a steep slope into debilitating depression and anxiety. Before this, I had never understood how suicide could seem like an appealing option. But after months of pain, reaching dead ends with mental health providers, and anguish within my thought-life, I began to experience suicidal ideation for myself.
It didn’t happen all at once. Little by little I devolved into a shadow of my former self. Daily tasks consumed all my energy and usually left me crying. I fluctuated between high strung panicky energy and utter lethargy.
Late one January night, I came to an ultimatum: find a better way to live, or this will kill you. Depression was eating me alive and if I didn’t address its root causes, I’d die by suicide. I was afraid, but just stubborn enough not to succumb.
Making Progress Toward Recovery
I contacted a Christian counselor with a rigorous outpatient program. After nearly a year of healthcare providers telling me I’d only ever be able to cope with the symptoms of depression and anxiety—I was offered real hope. By this time, I’d been a Saved and Jesus-professing Christian for most of my life. I thought I’d done faith wrong or deserved God’s wrath because I was depressed. Wasn’t that the opposite of joy—the fruit of the Spirit?
I cried in the office as he confidently told me this was something that could be overcome for good. The Word of God acted as a sword at the center of counseling. It sliced through lies and mental illness, making room for Truth and clarity to take root and grow.
My official diagnosis read major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, slight obsessive compulsive disorder. There may have even been a touch of psychosis.
Naming all the things that seemed to be “wrong” in my brain was scary. However, giving what I’d been experiencing an accurate diagnosis helped begin to untangle the mess in my mind. No one likes to be labeled but the label guides us to an appropriate antidote.
Recovery Interrupted
For me, recovery was not smooth. It was impacted by my lifestyle as a military spouse. Times of separation from my husband, stigma, hurtful words from healthcare providers who implied I was a burden to my husband’s career all had an impact. Then, just as things were beginning to improve my husband received orders for a short notice cross country move.
It was like getting sucker punched. Just as I had started to earnestly hope full recovery was possible, it seemed to be snatched away.
With my health in a precarious position, my husband and I sought to delay the move in order to afford me time to recover in a stable environment. This unleashed a complicated and painful fight that involved leadership, administrative offices, a medical board, and often forgoing privacy about the details of my condition. I remember one healthcare provider told me to “…try to wait and deal with this once my husband has retired,” because it would be “easier for everyone.” One solution offered to us was that my husband could proceed with the move and I could stay behind to finish counseling alone.
I felt ashamed, like a major problem no one knew how to deal with. I thought things would be easier for everyone if I didn’t exist.
Finding Victory
These circumstances nearly derailed my recovery, but somehow I survived. By God’s grace and an inborn stubborn streak I kept finding the strength to keep breathing. To wake up one more day. To explain myself one more time. To insist on getting help, to advocate for myself, to speak up when things were unacceptable.
Things were ugly—but I kept fighting for the life I hoped waited on the other side of mental illness. I can only take credit for showing up. The victory was won by God’s Truth, His goodness, might and power. He created a way for me to recover, despite a dynamic lifestyle. He taught me that victory is possible on this side of eternity. He showed me He is a safe space, an ally, a Good Father.
Lasting Healing Can Be Part of Your Mental Health Story
Six years ago I had my final relapse. I’ve spent these years retraining my brain to think in healthy patterns. Over time, these new healthy ways of responding have become my normal and natural reaction to all of life’s circumstances. Lies that had long masqueraded as fact have been exposed and replaced with God’s Truth. My value—your value—is not wrapped up in where we’ve been, how we perform or what others think of us. Our value was named when God chose to create us and deem us worthy of Salvation through His Son’s death. God bought us at a high price—that is our value, that is our identity. (1 Peter 1:18-19)
Overcoming takes time, work, and facing a lot of uncomfortable emotions—but it’s possible and it’s worth it. There is nothing special about me. I’m just a regular person who scrapped up enough strength to live one more hour at a time. If I can do it, so can you. There’s a life worth living on the other side.
That’s My Mental Health Story. Now, How can I serve you?
Here are a few ways, but I’m always open to new ideas.
Connect with me on Instagram and Facebook where I share more about my past with mental health and action steps for maintaining recovery, coping and raising emotionally healthy littles.
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Allow me to meet with your group in person or virtually to hear more about my testimony, discuss mental health, and field questions. Learn more about speaking engagements here.
If you are in a position of leadership or ministry, I offer consultation calls designed to answer questions and strategize ways to serve individuals grappling with their mental health.
Let me tell you the story I most wanted to keep secret. It’s the experience I never wanted to live, the story I didn’t want affiliated with who I aimed to be, the tale I feared would both define and disqualify me.
I’ll keep it short. You can read a more detailed account here.
After years of enduring cyclical anxiety and depression, things came to a head. I experienced a full-blown mental health crisis. I lost my mind. That’s the core of my mental health story.
The reason I used to be shy about sharing this tale is that I thought it ended there. I thought losing my mind was the story. I mistakenly thought losing it was the most interesting and defining part of the saga. In the years since I’ve come to realize that that being mentally ill is not the most interesting part of the story.
No, friend. The most interesting part of this story isn’t what was lost, but what was found.
I found strength to fight.
I found a will to live when suicide seemed like the only peaceful option.
I found deeply held lies about myself and God and the Truth to uproot them.
I found a healthier marriage.
I found peace.
I found restoration.
I found healing that lasts.
I found a living God and redeeming love.
This list could go on and on. I discovered that a history of mental illness, suicidal ideation or believing lies doesn’t mean disqualification or ostracism. If you share this piece of history, or find yourself walking through a time of mental trial, hold onto this truth: you are not disqualified from a thriving future, you are not destined for ostracism.
You’re Not Disqualified | You Can Find Victory
I used to be afraid having walked through life-threatening mental illness would mean I’d never be seen as fit or trustworthy again. This is a lie. Instead, this experience uniquely qualifies me to proclaim God’s power and ability to restore beauty to life’s ugliest bits.
It qualifies me to encourage you in the midst of a mental health battle or in the midst of loving someone who is. If you are wondering if there is can be lasting healing or a life worth living on the other side, let me offer you a generous helping of hope. Allow me to come alongside you who are looking for courage, strength and proof that overcoming is possible.
The redemption waiting for you will qualify you, too. Not just to testify that mental health disorders can be overcome, but for a life exemplifying victory. On the other side of this you will be poised to empathize and encourage others.
Some Things Are Better Off Lost
I’m here to serve you. This story isn’t just about me. It’s about creating a vivid “word-image” of often invisible conditions and unseen pain. It’s about testifying to the possibility of mental wellness, God’s goodness and victory on this side of eternity.
Instead of asking you to raise your hand to admit you’ve lost your mind, I’d like to boldly raise mine first. Just because something gets lost doesn’t mean it can’t be found. Sometimes losing something makes room for finding something better.
Honestly, some things are better off lost and left behind. Depression, fear, anxiety, self-loathing, self-harm and lies are a few of those things.
I Lost My Mind, Now I’m Here to Serve You. How Can I Help?
Here are a few ways, but I’m always open to new ideas.
Connect with me on Instagram and Facebook where I share more about my past with mental health and action steps for maintaining recovery, coping and raising emotionally healthy littles.
Sign up for my monthly newsletter where I share encouragement, resources and recommendations.
Allow me to meet with your group in person or virtually to hear more about my testimony, discuss mental health, and field questions. Learn more about speaking engagements here.
If you are in a position of leadership or ministry, I offer consultation calls designed to answer questions and strategize ways to serve individuals grappling with their mental health.
Previously, I shared a bit about my personal experience with suicidal thoughts. After publishing, I heard from an unexpected number of women–some military dependents, some not. Many held similar fears of hurting their husband’s career or being a burden to those they love. Today is a follow up on the lie that suicide is a loving option. Today I’ll walk us through the maze that love, suicide and mental health can form.
So many who struggle with mental health can relate to perceiving themselves as a burden. It’s a bizarre and dangerous headspace. You dislike yourself and what your existence has become–but you love the people around you. Eventually your perception of yourself becomes so toxic, you start to believe the lie that eliminating yourself is the most loving thing you can do for those around you.
Being you has become unbearable. Ergo, being with you must be unbearable for those you love.
Being you has become unbearable. Ergo, being with you must be unbearable for those you love.
Like I said, it’s a slippery, dangerous trail of thinking–but others in our community have been there.
What can be done?
Depression is a Liar. Turn to the Truth.
First, remember depression is a liar. Then turn to the source of Truth, the Bible.
When I had those toxic thoughts, Derek kindly pointed me to the “Love Chapter,” 1 Corinthians 13. After all, love for the man I married was one of the only things that hadn’t blurred out of focus. With this starting point, I began unravelling a mess of lies. Line by line, piece by piece I cognitively examined what Scripture outlines as loving–at a time when I thought disappearing might be the most loving solution available.
Here’s a bit of how that process looked for me.
Love is patient.
In the Greek this is literally “to persevere patiently and bravely in enduring misfortunes and troubles; to be patient in bearing the offenses and injuries of others.” Now apply that to this toxic thinking.
Love patiently, persistently waits, knowing help and healing may take a while. Those who love you will wait with you, being “slow to anger, slow to punish.” Loving yourself means understanding it takes patience to heal.
Love is kind.
Being kind to yourself means having grace while you find help. Being kind to Derek meant showing grace to the person he loves (me), and choosing intentionally kind words to speak about myself and him.
Love is not jealous/envious.
Love is not jealous of another’s circumstance. Those who love you are not jealous of a different circumstance. I needed to stop comparing myself, situation, troubles, etc to anyone or anything else.
Love trusts.
Choose to trust your loved ones when they tell you, you aren’t a burden. Trust your own tenacity and ability to overcome.
Love hopes.
Love for yourself and those around you means continuing to hope. Hope for a solution. Live in the joy of hope—even when enduring sadness and hardship. Find strength to hope for a future without depression and anxiety. Love does not interfere with others’ hoping for these things alongside you.
Love perseveres/endures.
Real love continues to persevere until a help can be found. Elimination of self is not loving perseverance. Those who love you will persevere through the season. Show love to them by choosing to persevere until help and healing can take root.
The Most Loving Thing You Can Do is Persevere in Finding Healing.
The darkness of depression can cause, even the clearest-thinking individual to become confused by lies and sadness. Depression is painful, can feel shameful and embarrassing, the mental agony can seem unbearable. If you’re there right now, know that healing is possible and it’s out there. The most loving thing you can do is persevering to find healing—not eliminating yourself.
If You Love Someone Struggling, Point Them to the Truth In Love.
If someone you love is in this headspace, love them by pointing them gently to Truth. Remind them it won’t always be like this, they are not a burden, and you’ll fight for healing alongside them. It might save their life.
I NEED YOUR HELP | ONE MORE THING BEFORE YOU GO…
Christian and military spouse. YOUR help will get the book published. The easiest way is click “FOLLOW” on Instagram or sign up for my monthly newsletter via email (below). Your support demonstrates interest in this story and these words of hope.
Above all, thank you for being here and for your support. It’s an honor to share my testimony with you and I’m excited to see the great things God does through your journey.
The following is an excerpt from a journal entry I wrote at the beginning of Derek’s most recent deployment. While he was quarantined stateside (but gone from our home), we had a Zoom meeting with a young couple as part of their premarital counseling. They are the exact ages we were when we got married, 22 and 23. They’d soon be starting their life as a married, military couple. The question we discussed that most stands out to me is, “What is a good thing about deployments?”
Our conversation blessed me. We were two weeks into our latest separation, my first as a mom of two. Honestly, I felt like I was drowning. The clarity this conversation forced on me is exactly what I needed. It was God showing up in the midst of the grief the early days of deployment always bring.
I captured a series of self portraits during the deployment. This one was taken on the day I’d be asked, “What is something good about deployments?”
WHAT IS A GOOD THING ABOUT DEPLOYMENTS?
I glanced at the monitor, amazed that everyone was quiet and sleeping so our conversation could be had in peace. Deployment leaves you a special, unique kind of tired. Today was no exception, but at the same time I was glad to be having this conversation.
“Okay, the next question is…What is something good that comes from times of separation and deployments? Can you tell us a good thing about deployments?” What a wise question to ask.
I was surprised by the answer that was ready on my lips.
“The best thing about being separated from Derek for a season is that it brings clarity about my identity. It forces me to recognize that I am fully complete in Christ alone. My identity does not rest upon being Derek’s wife, or having him around. When he’s gone, I remember that I am fully equipped and capable in Christ to carry on and do what life will ask of me.
“I tend to be a bit of a leech, clinging on to whatever is familiar, especially my people. I had terrible separation anxiety from my parents as a child–then from Derek as an adult. That’s not healthy. These seasons force me to break off any unhealthy attachment and remember that it’s okay to just be Amy. Don’t get me wrong, I hate being away from Derek. But good always comes from it. Good will always come when we more fully submit our identity to God.”
I stand by that. Is it painful? You betcha. Do I wish it could be done a different way? Yep. But this is good. Really good. The kind of good that would be a lot harder to find if I wasn’t forced into a deployment circumstance.
I wish someone had told me that 12 years ago. I wish someone had told me lots of things 12 years ago.
There is hope, there is reason, there is progress. Even in these terribly hard days. It seems like no good will ever come from being forced apart, but with God good things are always probable.
Separation Diary: March 26, 2021
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Recently, I started penning sample chapters for a memoir detailing my experience with mental health crisis as a Christian and military spouse. YOUR help will get the book published. The easiest way is click “FOLLOW” on Instagram or sign up for my monthly newsletter via email (below). Your support demonstrates interest in this story and these words of hope.
Above all, thank you for being here and for your support. It’s an honor to share my testimony with you and I’m excited to see the great things God does through your journey.
Let’s talk about depression, anxiety and Christians for a sec. In this quick read, I’ll give you 8 powerful truths I’ve learned (the hard way) for depressed Christians
Memories of struggling against anxiety, overwhelming sadness, fear and self loathing reach back as far as I can remember. I was raised in a loving, church-going family. My parents gave me a wonderful life. I understood the plan of Salvation at 7 and believed Jesus was my Savior. At 12 I gave my heart to Christ with a more mature understanding of what following Him meant.
After that, I fell more deeply in love with Jesus every day and through every season. But still, the fear and sadness crippled me sometimes. Still, I blamed myself for things that went wrong, things that cause me hurt, things that thwarted my ambitions, and all the other things that were out of my control. As a result, my shoulders ached from carrying the burden of my own emotions—and taking on too much responsibility for the emotions of others.
I prayed, I went to church, I professed Jesus with my heart and my lips. Still, the anxiety came and went. Still, depression cyclically set up camp in my heart. Things weren’t right.
Why Are So Many Christians Anxious and Depressed?
In January 2015 I was in the heart of a mental health crisis. Panic set in most nights. Racing, intrusive thoughts pushed their way into my mind, preventing the rest I needed so badly. One of the scariest thoughts that came to mind over and over is this one:
“You fail at everything. Even Salvation. If you’d done Salvation right, this wouldn’t be happening.”
Friend, I can’t tell you why I struggled so deeply. I can’t give you an easy fix. Shortly after those panicky nights in 2015 full healing began to take place. I’ve spent the years since retraining my brain to think differently, to sort out lies and live outside of the anxiety/depression cycle. There’s hope, there’s healing. However, I’ve spent time wondering “why me?” and “why do so many Christians experience anxiety and depression?”
I don’t have the answer now, and I probably never will. But here are some hard-won truths I can share with you.
Truths About Depression, For Christians
Experiencing depression and anxiety as a Christian doesn’t mean your faith is broken. It doesn’t mean you aren’t faithful. It doesn’t mean your salvation isn’t intact. It doesn’t mean you prayed wrong. It doesn’t mean you’ve done Christianity wrong. It doesn’t mean God is punishing you. It doesn’t mean God “designed” or “destined” you for sadness. It doesn’t mean God isn’t good.
It means we have a very bad enemy who aims to thwart the Kingdom of Christ by inflicting isolation and sadness upon those who bear witness to His relational nature and unstoppable joy.
Do your best to get to the root of what is causing your fear and sadness. Talk to a counselor. Uproot lies. Get a clear understanding of God’s character.
We’ll never have all the answers, but we will always have all the Hope. Never forget that the God of the Bible, is at His core, a God of Hope.
Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that you will abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Recently, I started penning sample chapters for a memoir detailing my experience with mental health crisis as a Christian and military spouse. YOUR help will get the book published. Your support demonstrates interest in this story and these words of hope.
Please take a moment to join me on Instagram, Facebook and via email (sign up below). Above all, thank you for being here and for your support. It’s an honor to share my testimony with you and excited to see the great things God does through your journey.
Here’s some of the most helpful + encouraging parenting advice I’ve ever gotten. In fact, it may be the best parenting advice I ever got.
“Becoming a parent doesn’t mean stopping. It doesn’t mean putting the work God asks of you on hold. It’s not God’s way of telling you to hold off on ministry and using your gifts until your kids are sleeping through the night, in school, potty trained…fill in the blank.
“Becoming a parent in an opportunity to welcome a child into your life’s ministry. To continue to do the work of God—and let your children in on the joy of serving and loving God + others.”
These words were spoken from a pulpit years before I became a mom. But I still remember it vividly as a moment when the lie that children are a burden, not a blessing began to crumble. I used to live in fear that my dreams would never come to fruition if I was a mom. That is simply not true.
What is true is that after I became a mom, the things my heart naturally craved started coming closer. When I had all the time in the world, I was unable zero in on what gifts needed my attention most. I chased after jobs that came easy, but never felt quite right. The work paid, but I always ended up frustrated that my “real” gifts were sidelined. The things I dreamed of never got closer—even though on paper it looked like I had everything I needed to “go for it.”
“After I became a mom, I was able to hone the skill of prioritizing.”
After I became a mom, I honed the skill of prioritizing. Having a baby in one arm meant that I needed to let go of all the “filler” jobs and skills that were awkward to hold—even with both arms. Suddenly my other arm was open to embrace the things that God had actually equipped me to do. I needed to be picky when saying “yes.” I became bolder about walking toward the things I am naturally inclined to do. For me, it’s writing, speaking, teaching, telling stories. For you, it’s probably something different.
I started to see firsthand that the work I was naturally gifted for didn’t need to stop because I had kids in my home; this was an opportunity to welcome them into ministry with me.
This was an opportunity to set an example of praying through how my time should be used, confidently stating the skills I excel at, and showing how God wires us all uniquely for Kingdom work. By allowing my boys to apprentice in this work, I pray that they’ll grow into confident men of God—who can identify their natural gifts and put them to use.
I think back to that statement from a pulpit I haven’t seen in years almost daily as I work on the things God has called me to. So most days you’ll find me in our “office” sitting at this tiny table working as much as I can alongside my best helper and apprentice. Sure, there are tasks I reserve for quiet moments when no little fingers are around to “help” type—but I cherish the moments we spend side by side, each working on our projects. I hope he always remembers that he was included and an important part of the ministry of our family. That he was welcomed into our callings. Never the reason we hit pause on working for the Kingdom of Christ.
A Word to the Not-Moms
Now, a word to those of you without littles in the home. Listen to me. Being a mom is not the key to being more effective for the Kingdom. Don’t get hung up on that. Instead, learn from my mistake of believing that there will be a better time “someday.” Run from the lie that you need to pursue money, or someone else’s definition of success, or even your own ideal of success. You are uniquely created to do unique work. Be confident about your gifts and start praying today for courage to use them to their full potential. This is a practice I’m still working on, and would be honored to have you striving alongside me.
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