Wait Expectantly | Planting Seeds For Next Season

I wish I was good with plants. But that’s just not the case.

I come from long lines of folks who are plant savvy. My parents have a massive garden that feeds the family all year. Their yard, patio and deck are adorned with flowers and containers all summer. My sister’s got it. All my grandparents were had it too.

I try. But half the time my vegetables turn out undersized and my succulents shrivel up on the shelf.

At Acorn House we’ve been blessed (or cursed) with a unique challenge–a blank slate for landscaping. No bushes, no beds, no plants of any kind (except a massive amount of weeds.)

I’ve spent the summer working on landscaping and building perennial beds around the property. We bought some plants. Others were split from larger plants and shared with me. Others have been transplanted from friends’ homes.

God Is Teaching Me To Wait Expectantly

While I’ve tackled this project, I’ve tuned my ear to God and what He has to teach me in the process.

All season, He has been using plants to weave anecdotes and examples of His Truth into my heart.

A theme God has been stirring in my heart throughout the summer is expectantly waiting. Expectantly investing in this season, for a bigger payout in future years.

Every plant that has gone in around the house is small. Young azaleas and hostas in front. Seedling hollyhocks, lilacs and fir trees at the perimeter. Transplanted or split daisies, day lilies, lily of the valley, and herbs in the back.

I’m Planting With a Vision For Future Seasons

It’s a lot of plants. My thought is, with all of this…something is bound to make it.

Jokes aside, we’ve got vision for these plants. Right now they are immature, not much to look at. However, I water them and attempt to care for them this season because I’m looking forward to growth in the years to come. I busy myself adding more perennials to the beds because when I close my eyes, I imagine a home surrounded by mature, lush landscape.

Here’s one thing God has been reminding me while I work in the yard: All plants start with a seed. No matter how big their potential, they all start with a seed, that becomes a fragile new plant, and eventually turns into something bigger and more beautiful every season.

Am I Waiting Expectantly in All Aspects of My Life?

Even with all this work and waiting, I’m content and full of expectation for the years to come. Not impatient that seedlings and transplants aren’t living up to their full potential in the first season.

God seems to bring this to mind every time I’m in the yard. So I’ve started to ponder: DoI extend the same grace and expectation in other areas of my life and faith walk?

So often when I work up the courage to speak up in truth, share the Gospel, or plant a seed of Truth, I either want to see immediate results or I give up and don’t expect anything to happen.

Anyone else? Anyone?

It all goes back to waiting expectantly. I’m no gardener. All I can do is plant, care and expectantly wait for growth, maturity, beauty and change in the seasons to come. With my yard, I am waiting expectantly. I fully anticipate bigger plants next year. More flowers. Something more substantial.

When I plant seeds of Truth by sharing my experiences or even the Gospel, I’m guilty of impatience, and worse, not waiting with expectation. I assume the blame. The seed was a dud, I didn’t have the answers or the words or the right moment to share. Instead of expecting something to happen in seasons to come, I’ve already decided there’s nothing to expect.

Ouch.

This summer, as I’ve worked with my plants, God has reminded me (convicted my heart) to wait with expectation. Stop giving up hope when results aren’t quick. Stop being impatient for growth. Wait expectantly for things to grow in their own time, in their own season. Confess and repent for losing hope for seeds planted, not trusting God to do His work.

Let’s Intentionally Wait Expectantly

Wait expectantly. God is ultimately the One who will spur something to grow and mature. (1 Corinthians 3:6-9)

Wait expectantly. To stop expecting a result means we’ve stopped believing a result will come, or is even possible. God assures us nothing is impossible for Him. The Bible is full of examples of how seeds planted grow and mature in due season. (Hebrews 11:1-3; Matthew 19:26)

Wait expectantly. Expectation gives us joy during the waiting and keeps impatience at bay. (Romans 8:25-27; more verses waiting expectantly)

Let’s intentionally wait more expectantly. It’s not our responsibility to make seeds of truth grow. We can only have faith that God is working. Let’s intentionally live with greater expectation and anticipation of what God is doing and will do.

Whatever you are waiting on. Whatever seeds you think may not have taken or will never mature–take heart. Allow expectation to ease the heartache that waiting can bring. Continue to invest and plant now, with expectation for the seasons yet to come.

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Things Look Worse Before They Look Better | Trusting God in the Mess

Today I’m sharing an everyday devotional about trusting God in the mess of our lives. I’ve learned over and over that things usually look worse before they look better–and trusting God in the mess is safe. Read along as I tell you a story from everyday life and weave a lesson about God’s grace and truth into it.

Last week I spent an afternoon sanding down the hardwood floors in our soon-to-be master bedroom. I almost didn’t want to start. Most of the floor was in pretty good shape. There were some places where leaky windows had left water damage, or years of foot traffic had worn away the finish completely, leaving bare, exposed wood.

It was a shame sand the nice places. The only thing that propelled me into action was having faith that, in the end, the finished product would look better. What looked “kind of okay” would be breathtaking.

This brings me around to a truth that I’ve learned after working on lots of old houses:

Things Nearly Always Look Worse Before They Look Better.


Pinterest is flooded with beautiful Before & After photos. I love looking at B&A pictures. They’re addictive to me, but often, these images leave out an important look into the middle.

There’s a difficult season in the middle of any project–where things look worse than when you started. Even if you know what you are doing is necessary and will be great when its done, it’s inevitable that things will look like a hotter mess as you start to improve than when you started.

I’ve had “middle moments” when I started to wonder if things were really that bad to begin with. Yes, kitchen cabinets that are intact would be nice. But when prepping dinner means using a dismantled dishwasher as your only counter space, and cleanup means hauling all the dirty dishes upstairs to a decrepit 1950’s apartment kitchen–it’s easy to start thinking things would be better if we’d never started this project.

I’m speaking from experience.

It’s not just home improvement projects that this holds true for. Think about reorganizing, unpacking, or sorting excess. The mess always gets bigger before it comes into a new, better state.

Israel’s Middle Moment | Trusting God in the Mess

Back to sanding the floor.

As I let the sander do its worst to a mostly-okay floor, my mind drifted off to Pentateuch chapters, still fresh in my mind from the 90 Day Bible Reading Challenge.

How many times did the Israelites rail against Moses, asking him why he’d led them out of Egypt to “die in the wilderness”? Why he’d brought them away from Egypt, where:

“We remember the fish which we used to eat free in Egypt, the cucumbers and the melons and the leeks and the onions and the garlic, but now our appetite is gone.”

(Num 11:5)

Maybe things were better how they were before.

Yes, they were slaves. Sure, they were belittled, treated less-than, and strictly limited on how they could worship the God they knew to be true. Of course, it wasn’t ideal. But in the heat of the desert, in the midst of that “middle moment” where they’d been didn’t look so bad.

As a modern reader, it’s easy for me to judge Israel. I mentally scold them for not trusting God in the mess. I easily shame them for having weak faith and faltering. Isn’t it obvious? God has something much bigger and better planned. Why don’t they just hush up and eat the manna? Cool your jets, God is doing something huge and wonderful for you–just give Him a hot second.

It’s easy to take that stance when we know the ending. And not just the ending of that journey, when they really do reach the land flowing with milk and honey. We understand that all the law and the prophets and the wandering lead to reconciliation to God for all people, through the sacrifice of Jesus–His perfect, holy son.

We’re blessed to have a more complete picture. Israel, however, was living the “middle moment.”

Fear in the Middle Moments

As I sanded the floor down I felt great empathy for these people. For them, Egypt was the only home they’d ever known. Slavery was the only lifestyle they’d ever lived. It might have even seemed “basically okay.” Walking away took guts.

Like taking a sander to a floor that was basically okay.

What if I take the finish off and the new stain looks crummy? How will I fix it if I just make it worse?

What if we left Egypt–and all we’ll ever know now is dry, dusty wilderness and wandering?

What if we threw away an unpleasant, but stable existence only to watch our children die out here?

How will we ever live with ourselves if there is no promised land and this whole journey has been wasted?

The floor looked more ragged and dingy while I sanded. The once clean room was covered in dust.

Things nearly always look worse before they look better.

Intentionally Take Heart in Your Middle Moments


Friends, let’s be encouraged by the generations before us. Maybe you are about to jump into something that will shake up your world. You know it needs to happen, but you’re nervous. Plaster this truth on the walls of your heart: Things may look worse before they look better. But God is the author of beauty and redeems even the biggest messes.

Maybe you are in a “middle moment.” Some corner of your life is in total disarray. You want to put things back, but it’s too late. You’ve walked out of Egypt. You’ve turned the sander on the floor. Keep moving forward. God will lead you out. Intentionally reminder yourself: Things look worse before they look better. God is bringing something good from this mess. (Get more encouragement from the Moving Forward in Hard Times series.)

Maybe you are lucky enough to have walked through the “middle moment” and come to the promised land. Hold on to the clarity you have. Do not praise your own strength or effort. Remember, what God brought you through. Continue to seek the ways He worked through that season, continue to praise Him. Write it out. Remember what He has done. Recall it often. Do not make the same mistake as the Israelites.

They stopped talking about it. They stopped teaching their children about that hard season in the wilderness. Eventually, it was a vague, distant tale. And again, a hard season crept upon them, another trial. Another “middle moment.”

No matter where you are, or what you are facing, remember that things may look worse before they look better. But, when we walk with God, we can trust that we are being led toward a finished product, a destination far better than where we started.


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Reading Old Testament Law | 7 Ways to Refresh Your Mindset & Free Study Guide

If you are reading through the Bible, plan to, or have read it–you know that reading Old Testament law can be tricky (or nap inducing). Today I’m excited to share a few ways you can refresh your mindset toward the law. (You can get a couple reading plans here, or read about my love for chronological reading and the 90 day reading challenge.)

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Reading Old Testament law is hard. It can be hard to comprehend and appreciate. Even harder to understand how it ties into the New Testament, modern church and our faith walk as “post-resurrection” believers.

I get it. I’ve been there–trying to keep my eyes open while reading Old Testament law, or simply letting my eyes move over chapters describing the sacrifices expected at feasts. It can be really, really hard.

Along the way I learned a few things that changed my mindset about these sections of Scripture. These things changed me. Not only could I read them and stay awake, but I came to like them. If you aren’t as big of a geek as me, like may be going a bit far. But I believe we can all come to a place of understanding and appreciation.

Refreshing Your Mindset For the Law + Free Study Guide!


Today I’m sharing seven points that shifted my mind and altered my attitude toward the “drier” sections of the Old Testament. I’ve also turned these points into a FREE printable study guide. You can get it over in the resource library or at the bottom of this post.

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A Fresh Take on Reading Old Testament Law


God Is Speaking


Years ago someone encouraged me while I was struggling through the laws and details of the Pentateuch. She said, “I think those books are really cool. I mean, most of the just a record of God Himself speaking.”

I’d never thought of that before. These sections of text are dense with God’s direct communication to His people. It’s reading God’s actual words, to actual people!

God is Equipping a New Nation


After leaving Egypt, Israel was to become a new nation of its own. This was a huge undertaking, but God did not expect them to take it on alone. He didn’t expect them to figure it out on their own or make it up as they went along or copy other nations. Instead, He painstakingly told them everything they needed to know about living as a nation of their own, God’s chosen people.

The Law Assures Us That God Will Provide a Framework to Live Holy Lives in Any Culture


An article from Zondervan’s Cultural Backgrounds Study Bible explains this concept well (paraphrasing and emphasis mine):

The laws in the Bible reflect in large measure the way ancient societies were structured. God’s revelation speaks into that context. The laws in the Bible do not seek to restructure society, but to affect how people live and think in the societal structure they have...The laws of the Bible seek to transform how people live in whatever sort of society they find themselves. No societal structure is flawless; it is always subject to the nature of the people who are part of it…

Consequently, when we look at the laws of the Bible, we are not looking for the picture of a perfect society nor should we think that God is endorsing such a society. We will find that the shape of Israelite society is often very much like those of her neighbors, but we should be attentive to the ways that the Bible goes further to protect the rights and dignity of those who might be vulnerable. In this way the Bible can pioneer new moral ground even while being situated in the familiar social structures of the ancient world

While Biblical laws describe a society very much rooted in the ancient world, God calls his people to higher standards. The areas of commonality do not suggest that the Bible has borrowed from the legal literature of the ancient world; only that God addressed their society as it was, but sought to show them a pathway to holy living within that framework.

“Ancient Laws, Scripture and Modern Issues” Zondervan’s Cultural Backgrounds Study Bible

How comforting that God will provide a way for us to live holy lives within the framework of any culture or societal structure!

The Law Reveals God’s Heart


It’s easy to get overwhelmed by the number of specifics laid out in the Law. But the law reveals God’s unchanging heart. Here are a few things the law reveals about God’s character:

  • While other Near Eastern cultures believed that gods relied on humans to serve them, it’s clear the God of Israel does not need the provision of humans. His desire is a relationship with man, not servants.
  • God cares for the marginalized and lowly.
  • God does not expect perfection. Rather, His desire is our heart, trust and devotion. The law draws a clear line between those with appropriate and inappropriate heart posture. Our heart, not our actions or wealth have always been more important to God.
  • God is faithful, even when people are not faithful to Him.
  • The law reveals God’s desire to show the world what it looks like to be in relationship with Him.

Jesus Valued the Law


References to the law are found throughout Scripture. This alone makes a general understanding of Biblical law relevant to us. Even more, Jesus valued the law and understood it. In Matthew 5:17-18 he says,

Do not think that I’ve come to abolish the Law or the prophets; I have not come to abolish them, but to fulfill them.

For truly I tell you, until heaven and earth disappear, not the smallest letter, not the least stroke of a pen, will by any means disappear from the Law until everything is accomplished.

Matthew 5:17-18

There are Three Types of Law


A friend who is well versed in OT law recently told me that understanding the different categories of law helped her appreciate the laws overall. There are three types of laws laid out in Scripture: Ceremonial, Civil and Moral Laws.

Ceremonial laws aren’t observed anymore because the temple is no longer standing and many were prophetic and fulfilled in Jesus’ coming and atonement for our sins.

Civil laws were specific to life in Israel and in that time and culture.

Moral laws can still be applied today and are seen in teachings/letters sent to the early Church in the New Testament.

Atonement is Messy and Personal


Old Testament law clearly shows us that the atonement we desperately need to bridge the gap between us and God is messy. Atonement is personal, messy and serious. The law points to our need for a more lasting solution. The gap between us and God is wide and we are need a redeemer to help us: Jesus.

Reading Old Testament Law


I hope one or two of these will help refresh your mindset about reading Old Testament Law. If you are joining in on the 90 Day Bible Reading Challenge, you may have already passed through the thickest part of books of the law–but there is still plenty left. Remember, the law is quoted over and over throughout Scripture. Having a basic understanding (original readers would have had a deep understanding) will help you better understand the rest of the Bible.

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Who Else Gets Confused By Spiritual Gifts? | The Truth About God Given Gifts

Once upon a time I was drawn like a moth to a flame when it came to spiritual gift assessments. I wanted so badly to understand my God given gifts and what they meant for my life. It took years of learning and letting go of some selfish ambition to understand that God offers our souls big freedom when we let go of the list and grab onto His purpose.

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Trying to understand my God given gifts left me confused. I did lots of things and had lots of skills–but what was my gift? What job did God have for me to do?

Answering the Question: What Do You Do?

I spent a lot of time during my early Christian walk stressing about spiritual gifts. I’d eagerly take the spiritual gift tests. Anxiously read the descriptions in the inventory–hoping I’d fit in somewhere.

But often the test came back inconclusive. I’d measure equally for multiple gifts and nothing really stood out.

This mirrored real life where I had lots of interests and talent, but no one clear direction. Much of my life (both adolescent and adult) was spent searching for what I should b doing. What was my calling? What career should I pursue? Why didn’t any of my God given gifts bring in an income? How would I ever have a respectable answer to my least favorite question, “What do you do?”

I’m a mixed bag of tricks. Comfortable in the throws of a remodel. Speak contractor lingo fluently. Happy in the church kitchen. Loves dinner parties and formal holiday gatherings. Fearless of public speaking. Chronically curious. Fast learner. Skill gatherer. It’s all very mixed up and incongruous. Where did that leave me? Where would I ever fit? What gift label applied to me?

The time spent grappling to understand the gifts God had given me felt like wandering around in the dark. Why did it seem like everyone else had a path that fit them? Instead of walking in freedom, I a slave to comparison. Comparing my walk to others’. Comparing my (nonexistent) income to others’. I was sure that God had given me gifts, but I didn’t see them.

If I was good at so many things, why didn’t any of it amount to success? Why didn’t I have a “real job?” Or a “real” paycheck?

Maybe one or two of you can relate.

Clarity on God Given Gifts

Years later, I was honest with God about this struggle to find worth in career and my confusion about my God given gifts. He provided clarity to me. This week when reading from Exodus for the 90 Day Bible Reading Challenge intersected with a study of Ephesians I remembered my years of turmoil over God given gifts.

Spiritual Gifts in Ephesians

In Ephesians Paul lists out several “spiritual gifts” given to the Church. (This is one of the passages often quoted during my spiritual gift test exercises.)

And He gave some as apostles, and some as prophets, and some as evangelists, and some as pastors and teachers…

Ephesians 4:11

I looked at the list. Options of gifts that I might have. (Also in 1 Cor 12, Rom 12.) Wondering which ones I was given. Thinking if only I could figure out my gifts, I’d be more fit to serve, more capable of finding a “real job,” more content in my own life.

The Purpose of Our God Given Gifts

But the freeing truth God showed me isn’t in the list. Let’s look at the complete sentence from Ephesians 4. (Emphasis mine.)

And He gave some as apostles, and some as prophets, and some as evangelists, and some as pastors and teachers, for the equipping of the saints for the work of service, to the building up of the body of Christ; until we all attain to the unity of the faith, and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to a mature man, to the measure of the stature which belongs to the fullness of Christ. 

Ephesians 4:11-13

What my selfish heart overlooked during those early years of searching for purpose was right there all along. It’s not about the list. It’s about the purpose.

The purpose of our God given gifts is equipping other believers for their service. Building (both encouraging and expanding) the Church. And–Our gifts are to be employed until we all attain unity of faith, knowledge of Jesus and the “body of Christ” grows into a mature man.

We are free to use our gifts in any way they manifest, as long as serve this purpose. God doesn’t require our gifts to gain fame, define our career or even pay the bills. Changing our mindset makes us free to live and serve joyfully–instead of feeling like a failure because our gifts don’t fit or aren’t in the career aptitude test.

Gifts in Exodus

Exodus lists lots of other specific gifts given to craftsmen while they are building the tabernacle. Perfumers, those who work with gold, weavers, builders…The jobs listed are extensive, but Scripture is clear that all of these gifts are given from God. (Emphasis mine.)

Moses continued, “So Bezalel and Oholiab will do the work as the Lord has commanded. They will do this with the help of every other craftsman to whom the Lord has given the necessary skills and talents. They will know how to do all the work for constructing the holy place.”

Moses called Bezalel and Oholiab and every other craftsman to whom the Lord had given these skills and who was willing to come and do the work.

Exodus 36:1-2

Hope in Our Spiritual and God Given Gifts

I was hoping to be put in a box, given a label–all so I could serve my own interests. I wanted to put my gifts to use for myself. But really–God’s purpose for our gifts (whatever they may be) is to serve others and build His body up.

I thought I needed to find a gift that fit from a list on a test. But really–all our interests, natural inclinations and abilities are from God, to be used for His glory.

Don’t be frustrated because you don’t do it all or wish you were like someone else. The unique makeup of YOU is evidence that you were designed intentionally by an intelligent God.

Don’t be fooled by the lie that God is hiding your purpose. Making His will difficult to find and easy to overlook. I thought to “find God’s will for me,” meant knowing my gifts and exactly how to employ them in a career.

Gifts can look many different ways. A gift can manifest in the ability to preach before a congregation or weave beautiful tapestries. No matter what the gift is, the purpose is more important than the gift itself.

Friends, you are gifted. But we are called to turn those gifts outward. Remove the stress and burden of figuring out how to use your gifts to further yourself–instead, employ them the way God intended. To equip others for work and build the church until we attain unity of faith and the body of Christ grows into a mature man. When you reshape your mindset, you will find that your heart has room to breathe and you feel more free to use your giftings to their fullest.

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Why Do Bad Things Happen To Good People? | The Ancient Question in Job

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Today I’m confessing that I dislike reading the book of Job because it makes me very uncomfortable. It brings the ancient question: Why do bad things happen to good people? to the forefront of our minds. And calls for reflection and correction in how we view suffering and walk with those in pain.

This week I read the book of Job. I have a really hard time with Job. Such a hard time that while on the phone with my mom, I told her I’d rather be reading Leviticus.

Now that’s really saying something.

Job isn’t a book I’d just pick up and read for fun. It was on the reading schedule as part of the 90 Day Chronological Bible Reading Challenge that kicked off on Monday. If it wasn’t on the schedule, I wouldn’t have read it right now.

Job Makes Me Uncomfortable

Why is Job so hard for me to stomach?

Honestly, it makes me uncomfortable.

The book starts with scenes that leave me with questions. I can’t quite wrap my mind around the set up leading to Job’s troubles. From chapter one of this book I’m already uncomfortable. Wrestling with questions and circumstances I don’t fully understand.

Then, all kinds of calamity strikes Job. Which brings up more questions. Better stated: The Question.

Why do bad things happen to good people?

How can such terrible things come onto someone so honorable? Why isn’t the world just according to the moral code I understand? Where is retribution for those that do evil? Why don’t all kind people prosper?

Why do bad things happen to good people?

The majority of the book of Job records dialogue between Job and his friends as they debate this issue. Job holds fast to his innocence. He strains to hold onto his faith and what he knows to be true about God.

Word Vomit and Meaning Well

His friends seem to mean well. I’m sure the circumstances facing their friend left them uncomfortable and unsure how to help. But they can’t keep their mouths closed or their speculations to themselves. They offer advice on how to regain God’s favor. They imply that Job must have done something to deserve this. Surely there is some wrong that he hasn’t noticed causing this tragedy.

As I read, I spend half the time rolling my eyes, wishing they would just be quiet and listen to their grieving friend. Take time to fully understand what he’s feeling and facing. I spend the other half of the time cringing with conviction because I can relate to the friends’ reaction on a deep level.

How often, when confronted with a friend’s deep hurt, do I offer advice and suggestions about things I have never walked through? How often, when faced with the discomfort of suffering do I end up spewing “word vomit?” Looking the pain of another human in the face has a way of bringing out the “fixer” in me. Maybe it has the same affect on you. I want things to be better. I want to fix the problem. To ease the pain, to comfort, to make the trauma go away.

Instead of trying to fix, speculating, and problem-solving–often a better reaction is listening, asking gentle questions, and turning to Truth to understand God’s character. Easy said, but boy, it’s hard.

Why Do Bad Things Happen To Good People? It’s an Ancient Question.

The suffering brings out questions. Questions that make us squirm for closure. Closure that may never come on this side of eternity.

We’re reading the Bible chronologically for this challenge. In our plan, Job fits in around Genesis 11. This means that the book of Job is very ancient indeed. Likewise the question, “Why do bad things happen to good people?” And the human desire to equate noble deeds with prosperity and wicked deeds with retribution are extremely ancient.

While studying Job I learned that many texts exist from civilizations in the ancient Near East (like Mesopotamia and Egypt) exploring this concept. In literary pieces similar to Job, bad things come into the life of a good person. Then the text wrestles with big questions. What’s the cause? Why has he lost favor with the gods? What can be done to restore his prosperity?

Humans have long wanted to place God inside our understanding of moral law. We want Him to be just according to our standards. But He is too big and too far-seeing to fit there. His justice is pure, but it doesn’t always look like we want it to. His mercy is so vast we can’t comprehend it.

Friends, our human desire to understand why bad things happen without cause, is ancient and inborn. It’s a question that has been on lips for millennia. It’s been making us squirm, prodding us to speak too quickly, listen too shallowly, and come to the wrong conclusions about God’s character for longer than we can imagine.

Job Causes Me To Examine My Reaction and Heart Toward Suffering

This, is at the heart of why I have such a hard time with Job. The book causes me to stare into the eyes of a question that has very little closure. A question I am humanly programmed to ponder. A question I desperately want a simple answer for.

Humanity will (I will) continue to wonder, ponder and speculate. Why do bad things happen to good people?

The answer may never be more exact than, “We live in a fallen world. God will set it all right again one day.” It takes faith, trust and a relationship with God to take that answer and continue to move forward. To trust that He sees farther than me (see Job 38:2223) and is just.

The book also forces me to look into a mirror and examine my reaction to other’s suffering. Do I speak Truth rooted in God’s word, on a foundation of love? Do I speak quickly because the pain and the “unanswerable question” leave me uncomfortable? Am I quietly listening and allowing grief to happen? Am I walking beside my brothers and sisters in a way that is “…worthy of the calling to which I was called…” (Eph 4:1-3)

What We DO Know

Job teaches us that hardship does not directly correlate with wrongdoing. It teaches us that God is patient with our mourning, grief and questions. He does not turn a blind eye to our pain. He does not depend on our righteous acts to appease Him into offering blessings. (See Matt 7:11)

While we might not have the answer, Scripture gives us plenty of insight about walking with each other. The instructions give us action steps (but none of those steps happen to be “speak really quickly about things you haven’t walked through…”) Here are just a few examples.

  • Pursue things that lead to peace and building up each other. Rom 14:19
  • Be forgiving. Col 3:13
  • Bear with one another. Diligently seek unity. Eph 4:2-3
  • Abhor evil. Rom 12:9
  • Don’t be too proud to walk with someone you perceive as “lower than you.” Rom 12:16
  • Do not be defeated by evil, but overcome evil with good. Rom 12:21
  • Use words to build one another up. Eph 4:29
  • Hold each other accountable. Help the weak. Be patient with all. 1 Thess 5:14
  • Admit wrongdoing to each other, pray for one another. Jas 5:16

Moving Forward From Job

I know many of us are wrestling with tough questions right now (and not only because we’ve read through Job.) We may not have the closure we desire, but we do serve a God who is bigger than our understanding. We do serve a God who allows us to be stewards of his grace, to show His ways to the world, to tell others that there is hope beyond unanswerable questions and the senseless grief of this world. He is a God who allows us to be part of His action.

As we face a hurting world, let’s remember to listen a little better. Not “reason away” bad circumstances. Let’s be proactive with the gifts God has given each one of us to create unity in the Body, care for the weak, and expand the Kingdom of Christ on earth.

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The Best Summer Ever | Free 90 Day Chronological Bible Reading Plan

Today I’m excited to bring you a free 90 day chronological Bible reading plan. I’ll be kicking off my reading on June 1 and I hope you join me. The free download is at the bottom of this post, or in the Resource Library. I’ve written some things I have learned through doing a 90 day reading plan…and how it has added to my testimony.

Four years ago I accepted a challenge from a friend to embark on a 90 Bible reading adventure. At the time, I was in the fledgling stages of claiming full victory over a lifelong battle with anxiety and depression. I’d recently walked through the darkest days of my life. A time in which my thoughts, emotions and even spirituality were jumbled and flipped.

During those long months of what I can now clearly see was a mental health crisis it took all of my strength and cognition to hang on to the Truth. God is real. Jesus is my Savior. God is a deliverer, not my enemy. If you have grappled with depression and anxiety, you know things can seem very mixed up. The temptation to believe lies is more real than you may ever have imagined.

I Thought The Timing Was All Wrong.

Anyway, in the early summer of 2016 I had completed counseling which took me to the root causes of much of my anxiety and depression. I was healing, but the wounds were still a little raw.

Mentally, I was exhausted from learning to live out new healthy patterns of thought. Emotionally, I was drained because Derek and I were moving and there were many uncertainties. He had already left to train for his next job, I was alone–finalizing the sale of our house and packing. Physically, I was just dog-tired.

When the challenge came to join in a 90 day read through of the Bible I had several initial thoughts. I’m too tired for that. The timing isn’t right to take this on. I struggle with a year-long Bible reading plan–how could I do it in three months? I’ll try again some other time.

But the challenge nagged at me. Deep in my heart I could hear God telling me this was exactly the right time. I could feel the Holy Spirit assuring me that this would not be a burden, that His Word would be a salve to my wounds. This would propel me forward if I would let it.

Why I Love The 90 Day Chronological Bible Reading Plan

So, with much hesitation I started.

Friends, it really did change me. It did all those things my heart could hear, and so much more.

Because I chose to read in chronological order, I saw Scripture as a cohesive, narritive–from beginning to end. (Well–the end of the book. Revelation isn’t really “the end,” is it?)

Because the time frame was short, I gained an overall understanding of the “Bigger Story” told in the Bible. By reading in 90 days, I was able to see how the entirety of Scripture works together.

Because it was a fairly short commitment, I was more inclined to stay on top of it.

I’ve read the Bible in 90 days several times now. Every time is sweet and always worth the effort and challenge.

How Did I Really Read the Bible in 90 Days?

If you are hesitant, like I was–let me encourage you. This is how it looked for me.

First of all, it took me about 100 days instead of 90. Extend yourself grace. Don’t get discouraged.

Second, I’ve used a variety of techniques. I’ve done a complete audio “read-through.” I’ve done a combination of reading and listening. And I’ve done only reading. I prefer a combination of the two. For me, listening is best. I focus better and have better recall.

Third, I don’t always do all the reading at once. Depending on the day I may have 3-4 short reading sessions to tackle the day’s text–instead of one long session.

It This Really Doable?

Yes. It seems more implausible than it really is. Once you start you’ll see that this is a doable goal.

Audio Bibles are a great way to get the reading in, even if you aren’t able to sit and read. (There are lots of good options at BibleGateway)

I’m a terribly slow reader. To tackle the 90 day chronological Bible reading plan I need to split the texts up if I’m reading. Cumulatively it takes me 45 minutes to 1 hour to complete. (Also because I lose my train of thought when I read.) If I listen, it takes about 20-30 minutes. I’ll typically listen to the texts multiple times in one day. It’s more doable than you think.

All in all, it’s a small time commitment. Carve out the time for something this vital. Your heart will change. Your understanding of who God really is will be enhanced.

This is Your Right Time

Maybe you’re like me. Hesitant. Sure there will be a better time. Whatever hard times you’ve seen lately–maybe this is your right time. Your perfect moment to say “Yes” to something that truly matters, truly heals and brings true clarity and knowledge.

Just try.

I can’t promise you a list of benefits. But I can tell you from experience: time spent challenging myself to know God more deeply has never been wasted. Every time I push into to discover more about God’s character–I come out with joy more tangible, feet more planted and assured, fear a little farther away. Maybe this is your perfect moment to say “Yes.”

Here’s the Plan

It’s May 20. I’m kicking off my next “90 day chronological Bible reading plan” challenge on June 1. That gives you ten days to pray, prepare your heart and decide if you’d like to commit. I’d love to have you reading alongside me. To make it easier, I’ve got a downloadable Chronological 90 Day Bible Reading Plan–FREE, just for you.

There are lots of plans floating around. But this is the one I’ll be using…and it’s pretty. And doesn’t it feel better to take on a challenge with something pretty taped to the fridge? You can get the plan below. Or in the Resource Library.

I’ll be talking about the daily reads (or listens) on Instagram and in Instagram stories–I’d love to have you join me! I hope to be reading alongside you on June 1!

Getting Through Hard Times |Moving Forward in Hard Seasons Part III

This is the final installment of the “Moving Forward” series. If you missed the first two posts you can read them here:

Today I’m sharing three more lessons I’ve learned about difficult times and moving forward through them. Take heart, you can get through this.

Seasons Change. Be Rational. Hard Seasons Don’t Last Forever

When faced with the challenge of getting through hard times, it’s easy to let anxiety and a “woe-is-me” attitude to spin completely out of control into something irrational. I’ll admit that, for me, irrationality and ranting feel really good. It takes a lot of strength to remain rational and speak truth over the lies (more on overcoming lies here and here.) that encroach on us during a trial. Sometimes it feels really good to just give in and let your anxiety fly.

Maybe it’s just me.

At any rate, getting through hard times requires rationality. To move forward during a difficult season you must keep your head on. Remember the verse cited in Part I?

Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

1 Peter 5:8-10

The Greek words translated “alert” and “sober mind” tell us to be watchful, calm, collected, with a quiet spirit. Additionally, John 8:44 tells us that Satan is a liar and the father of lies. To resist him is to resist the lies that will vie for your attention and belief during a trial. You can only do this when you are “alert” and of “sober mind.”

Dispel lies. Remind yourself of what’s true. This will end. Hard times, difficult seasons–they don’t last forever. Seasons don’t last forever. Every day survived is another day closer to the end of this chapter. You are surviving, you are moving forward, you are not alone.

Write truths down when they come to you. Find them in the Bible. Tell a friend you are struggling and have them help speak truth into your situation.

Set Realistic Goals While Getting Through Hard Times

In Part II of this series I presented three of the six lessons I’ve learned about moving forward through difficult times. One of the lessons is that progress looks different during a trial. If you haven’t read that, go here first.

In my own life I’ve found that there are stages to every difficult season. First there’s a period of triage. I take on a “stop the bleeding” mentality to simply get through each day. Meeting all basic needs is a win during this time.

After that, things stabilize as it becomes clear this tough time is going to cling for a while. At this point continuing to triage only seems to make the days last longer. On top of that, I become frustrated because I can’t go back to my “normal” activities, but I don’t want to sink deeper into a rut.

That’s where defining some realistic goals comes in. Simple, realistic goals will help you continue to move forward as you are getting through hard times.

During Derek’s most recent deployment, while I was facing unrelenting morning sickness and restrictions from the pandemic, he encouraged me to set some goals to steer my focus away from the hardship and onto something else. Putting my mind to something else (while extending grace and being realistic) allowed me to move forward and eased a bit of the pain of trial. It felt like walking through sludge, but eventually I saw that I was becoming less stuck and taking strides forward.

I felt empowered as I saw progress being made. Hard seasons give us very little control, but setting small goals can give a sense of authority back to us. Here are a few examples of my realistic goals from the last month of Derek’s deployment. (Most are house related, remember…we were social distancing.) They aren’t glamorous, they aren’t earth-shattering, but they helped me see that I was moving–even during a hard season. (More on godly goal setting here.)

  • Clean the windows
  • Go for four walks each week
  • Clean cabinet doors
  • Remove wall paper from the second floor
  • Review Matthew chapter 5 (something we had memorized, but I let lapse)
  • Paint something with Gideon

Look For Lessons–Don’t Waste This Season

Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. 

For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow.  So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.

james 1:2-4

Have faith. God will walk you through this. And in my experience, He has never wasted a trial.

I believe God’s heart hurts when we are hurting. But let’s not forget that He is our Redeemer. The God that is able to redeem us from sin and death can redeem even our darkest hardships. He is our Creator. Surely, the One who created everything from nothing can create beauty from trial.

He can. He will. I’ve seen it happen.

Over and over God has been faithful to transform my ugliest trials and most difficult seasons in life into something lovely. When we let Him lead the way through the storm He’ll bring us into the calm with a wild, exciting testimony to share. He will teach us things that will equip us for next time, empower others, or just inspire us to rave about His Might.

When getting through hard times, listen closely for God’s voice. It’s there. Tune your ear to Him–instead of your fear or lies or anger or anxiety or distress. Those voices are loud–but God’s is calm and reassuring. He isn’t going to leave you, He will restore you and redeem you.

Remember God is the Good Guy When Getting Through Hard Times

God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble.

So we will not fear when earthquakes come and the mountains crumble into the sea.

Psalm 46:1-2

Friends, whatever you are facing–or whatever you will face–know that God is the hero, not the villain. He is for you. He has already gone to extraordinary lengths to offer you Salvation and Redemption. God has been faithful and will continue to be faithful. He is unchanging. Take heart. (Unsure about God’s kindness? I used to be too. Read this post.)

What has helped you get through a hard season? I’d love to connect with you on Instagram or Facebook. Come be part of a community seeking to live life with intentionality and through a Christ-centered lens. If this strikes a chord with your heart, please remember to share. Thanks for being here.

Christian Hospitality | Hospitality in Unusual Circumstances

Back in the fall I heard a friend speak about hospitality at MOPS while visiting South Dakota. At the time, I had just closed on Acorn House and it was a hot mess. There would be no formal dinner parties or baby showers at my house for quite some time. But her message challenged and encouraged my heart.

Christian Hospitality

The Christian hospitality that the Bible calls us to isn’t about having a perfect home. The Bible tells us hospitality runs deeper than hosting parties or having “enough space” or “the right kind of house” for guests. It’s a heart attitude that looks outward and reaches those around us. It’s an attitude that is an overflow of the gracious hospitality God has extended to us by welcoming us into His household.

So then you are no longer strangers and aliens, but you are fellow citizens with the saints, and are of God’s household,

Ephesians 2:19

I’ve been ruminating on this post since October. As I’ve prayed over hospitality these past months God has reshaped the way I see being hospitable. I’ve learned that hospitality is something anyone can practice, no matter what the condition of their house.

Defining Hospitality

This definition of hospitality from John Piper has stuck with me since the fall and it’s come to be a motto in my mind.

As far back as you want to go in the history of God’s people, one of the God-appointed duties of the righteous was hospitality—by which I simply mean the willingness to welcome people into your home (or your apartment) who don’t ordinarily belong there.

John Piper: Strategic Hospitality

Willingness to welcome people into your home who don’t ordinarily belong there. Over the months I’ve come to expand this definition to “Willingness to welcome people into your life who don’t ordinarily belong there.”

This view of hospitality is freeing. It doesn’t require party planning, cooking skills or being chronically neat. God desires our willingness to welcome others. (1 Peter 4:9) To welcome them into our home, our activities, our church, our lives. This is hospitality.

The Bible exhorts us not to neglect hospitality. (Hebrews 13:1-2)It goes so far to tell us to seek out opportunities to be hospitable. (Romans 12:13) Hospitality is something we should be on the offensive about–looking for ways to put it into practice, asking God for the strength and renewal we need when being hospitable doesn’t sound appealing.

Practicing Unconventional Hospitality

Since moving in, we’ve had a new roof put on, the garage structure beefed up, foundation cracks repaired, new supports dug in the basement, the furnace fixed, an emergency water heater issue resolved and lots of cabinet and appliance deliveries. This is not to mention the many contractors who have come to give bids and assess projects.

In short, our house has seen a lot of people in it who don’t ordinarily belong here. Rethinking hospitality has helped me not waste these opportunities. Instead of mourning the fact that my house isn’t ready to welcome my friends, I can be hospitable and welcoming to new people–who aren’t usually in my path. What a sweet opportunity God has given us!

A Newer, Sweeter View on Hospitality

When I began to reconsider my view of hospitality, I realized I didn’t need a perfect house or a well stocked kitchen. I only need a willingness to be welcoming and God to help me be aware of opportunities around me. The new military wife in town, those endless contractors, my friends–I could humbly practice hospitality before them when I laid aside my pride and desire for a bigger, better space. After all, yearning for something more than what I have is called coveting. Being shy, ungrateful, believing I should have something better that what I do have is called pride. And using either as an excuse for not allowing God’s love and grace to be displayed in my life is called disobedience. It’s a lazy excuse and it’s wrong.

There is no time better than right now to be loving, welcoming and hospitable to those around us. With social distancing in place, this can be a challenge. But you are creative and great. Satan would love for us to be isolated right now–vulnerable to lies. So we need to fight more than ever to connect and be hospitable. We need to be safe, but we must also fight the urge to overlook those in our path.

I pray over the people who come here. During breaks, I make conversation and I am genuinely interested in their lives. I like to make coffee and offer snacks. I want everyone who comes into my home, town or church to know that they are welcome, they belong, they are valuable. Derek and I also pray that God’s love would be seen in the atmosphere and actions within our walls. Sometimes its not the dinner and game nights of my dreams, but it is hospitality–and I believe God won’t waste it.

Christian Hospitality Has Eternal Ramifications

When we give hospitality a more sacred definition than “party planning” we see that Christian hospitality has eternal ramifications. For example:

  • The hospitality of Aquila and Pricilla in Acts 18 allowed Paul to minister and teach in Corinth.
  • In Acts 16 a jailer brought Paul and Silas to his home where he washed their wounds and listened to them. He and his whole house believed and were saved that night.
  • Jesus’ always made His teaching and message open for all. He welcomed anyone who would come to Him. This is hospitality.

In our culture hospitality with an eternal impact happens when we invite someone into our lives and demonstrate God’s grace through our actions and speech. It happens when we share our testimony over coffee. It happens when we ensure that others feel welcome to join activities that edify our faith.

One of the most important places Christian hospitality takes place is inside the church. Becoming a Welcoming Church does a fabulous job of expounding on how eternally important it is that our churches extend hospitality. (My personal view on this book and 7 other great non-fiction Christian reads are here.)

Real World Examples of Christian Hospitality

As a person who has moved more times than I would have liked, I’ve felt the happiness of being accepted and trusted. I’ve felt the deep pain of shallowness that implied I didn’t belong.

The highs and lows of these experiences are why I’m so passionate about helping others feel like they belong: in my church, in my home, in Minot. The things that have helped me feel most welcome haven’t been extravagant. It’s been things like:

  • A new friend trusting me to babysit her kids while she ran an errand
  • An invitation to a small group at church
  • Getting invited to serve at VBS
  • An invitation to a “lake” day with a group of friends who’ve been doing it together for years

Hospitality that gets to the heart says, “You belong.” “There is room for you in our circle.” “You’re valuable.” “I can’t wait to see how you can contribute.”

Getting Started With Christian Hospitality

Now it’s your turn. How can you start extending hospitality? There are lots of lonely, hurting people out there right now. And in the current circumstances “traditional” hospitality can be tricky. Here are some questions to pray over to get you started.

  • What has helped you feel a sense of belonging in a new situation?
  • What has caused you to feel unwanted in a new situation?
  • How can you welcome someone who isn’t “ordinarily” in your life?
  • Who is present in your world right now that isn’t “ordinarily” there? How can you help them feel welcome?
  • What activities can you include someone in?
  • Who would you like to know better?
  • How can you encourage someone to use their gifts?
  • How can you connect with others right now?

Thanks for joining me again today. I’d love to hear how you are practicing hospitality or how hospitality has been extended to you in a creative way. Comment here or connect with me on Instagram or Facebook. For more on hospitality I highly recommend this article.

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